A is for Angel

8 years ago today, I lost my firstborn son. He died from a blood clot in his umbilical cord. We planned him and we were so excited. I have always wanted to be a parent, for as far back as I can remember. I wonder what he would have been when he grew up. I know my kids are not ready to handle this yet. No way. I, as their mother, think they are not mentally capable of handling that kind of information yet. They wouldn't fully understand.
I decided it was time to get a tattoo in his memory. I went down to Pins & Needles, Casey tattooed it, it is beautiful and I love it.

Rest in peace A.J. I love you.

Mom
xoxo

Junie B. Jones and a lesson in parenting.

I was quite bothered this morning. Kat was trying to sound out the word: brains. Then I heard her say something about bashing brains. And then fist was being thrown into the mix. I'm thinking to myself...WTF?? She says it's her Junie B. Jones book she had gotten from Adora. I started reading, trying to figure out what was going on in this book. This all happened while we were getting out of the car for daycare. I did take the book in question with me to work...so I could do some "research". Below is my post in the Parent Forum:

"How'd you like me to bash your brains in, you 09/26 08:42:28

Ummm, this is a sentence in my daughters Junie B. Jones book. "Junie B. Jones and her Big Fat Mouth"
I don't care for this language but what do I do? Not let her read it? Is it that big of a deal?

What are your thoughts?????



I got some interesting feedback. http://forums.craigslist.org/?ID=49841718



"Talk about what she is reading. Ask her 09/26 08:48:13

if she feels what that person said was nice or right. Ask her if she has said anything like that to anyone or if anyone has ever said anything like that to her. Ask her how she thinks if feels to both say something like that and to have it said to her. Books with themes or dialog that make us uncomfortable are great jumping off points for conversations with our kids."


Duh, why didn't I think of that?? I ALWAYS seek different perspectives. Always.

Lemme bring you up to speed...new job, 1st grade, nuts...

Day. Care. Love. It.

I love my kids to pieces, but how wonderful is daycare? So you can understand where I'm coming from.. Since Kat was 1 I had worked for Pro Mod, Bub came along and then there was 2. Full time parent with a full time job. Um, did I leave out the part where both, yes both kids came with me to work. We could never afford daycare before so I dealt with it. It was trying at times, but we got thru it. Now, I have a better($5.50 more an hour) paying job and no commute. Yes, nooooooo commute. They are in a great daycare and everyone is happy. And sane.

My new job is going well. I am a Bookkeeper in the "Financial Department". LOTS of things to clear up, get organized and do:

*I'll just grab a few of my sticky notes for examples*

Build job costing for company
Create liability acct for retainers
Build ESA system for company
Build inventory system for shop
Create financial packets for lending

So, I'm really liking it so far. The boss hasn't blown up on me. Yet. He is said to have a bad temper. We'll see. The other employees are cool. Lenise and I have alot in common and get along great. I'm actually starting to feel like I'm accomplishing something during my work day.

Kat has started 1st grade and is growing up too fast. The second day of school she says "Mom, can you just drop me off and leave"?. Honestly, it took me a second to pick up what she was puttin' down. I thought I had at least another year before I heard that from her mouth. I agreed...and felt like throwing up.

On a funny note..

D: "Do you know what those are"?

Bub: "Own't know".

D: "Those are your nuts"

Bub: "My nuts"?

D: "Yes, see them"?

Bub: "Right here"?

D: "Yes, they are called nuts"

Bub: "Oh, dose are my nnnnutss"?

D: "Yep".

Bub: "Sissy, deese are my nnnnutss"!

Too freakin' cute.


Ok, I'm outta here. Looking forward to my 3 day weekend. Bye.

My life at a glance

K is 6 and J is to be 3 on the 28th of this month. Ideally he'll have a themed party, not sure what yet. Gonna get a jumpy house to keep the kids entertained, those things are awesome. I think we'll be having tacos, the weather's been really nice lately. It starts at 3pm and ends whenever. The adults hang and the kids play till bedtime.

Our party's usually go for most of the day. We like to get the party going, presents, cake, playing...not in that order. I don't have an order. "Should we do presents or cake first"? Which is it??? I dunno.

We are all happy and healthy, well we are still waiting to get an appointment to further discuss J's MRI results with a pediatric neurologist. At least he doesn't have a tumor or any vascular abnormalities. Whew!